Thinking of you is a sin and not thinking of you drives me crazy. I try to remember all the glorious moments we shared, the love we had and the promises of nothing would ever change. Instead I see all the lies that crept up in between, the harsh words exchanged like some video game. I remember you doing me wrong and expecting me to take it all in silence, staying strong. So while all is right in my life and I hope never to see you again… In the dark recess of my mind I wish, we meet just once again so I could Stab you once for all!
And I finally found that song!
Couple of years back, I had major heartache, not that it has left me much since, but I thought I had learnt to deal with it, till I found this song again today.
I used to listen to this song like a mad man over and over again. I would have heard it at least a million times, if not more, back then.
As days went by and breathing continued without much damage than, an obvious weight loss and missing heart, I forgot the song.
Ever since then, I had been trying to find it again.
The heartache continued even though it kept on switching from love, pain, anger to hate depending on the hour of the day, and I still couldn’t recall the song.
Today it has been a few years since the original day and the pain is worse than ever, and I thought, damn it! If I would listen to that song once, I will feel better for sure.
Boy was I wrong, I found the song and along with it I found every thing I lived then.
But I still love the song.
(Its in Hindi, so for those who care to know…
It basically means,
I cant even breath without you, my love, i have been everywhere, without caring about the day or night and i still cant stop looking for you…. i cant be without you even for a minute and now even death is not coming easy, no prayer is helping and i cant breath without you….. or something like that…)
The best way to revenge, is to either keep your adversary alive in your writings or to ignore him till he fades away.